Making art is hard. And it will destroy you if you’re not careful.
I’d spent most of my life avoiding dealing with my major traumas — around money, women, connection, etc. — until one day, after a business partnership collapsed and all of my dreams evaporated, I couldn’t anymore.
This 21-step docu-narrative documents my journey in picking up the pieces, learning the ropes, and finally figuring out How to Life on the way towards becoming an artist and a filmmaker, and the endless resistance, mental health crises, heartbreak and everything I faced along the way.
Here’s the most recent trailer:
And here’s a short excerpt — Step 7. Seek Relationship.
This project has been an extraordinary journey over the years — it started several years ago, while I was living in Japan. A close friend of mine encouraged me to create some sorta documentary thing — “just connect with a few different people, and film it” — and what started as a project in the middle of Covid in 2020 has ballooned into something I never could’ve anticipated.
Several years later, 4 different editors, 5 different storylines, and basically all of my savings, we’ve finally settled on a format that feels, well, good.